blacksheep

I thought I was d only blacksheep in our family but I was wrong coz my brother followed my footsteps. I never gave my parents happiness and fulfillment that they should have coz a few months after I graduated college I got pregnant to my daughter. My whole family was shocked when they found out and to top it all I'm already 6months pregnant. amazing huh?! They thought that I was just gaining weight though my mother had her instincts already..... I gave birth to my daughter, Ayesha Bernadette Ponesto De Mesa on April 12,2006 at exactly 08:25pm in St Clare, Makati through a caesarian section with all my parents expense. Coz that time I already resigned with my previous job and though my bf has a work, he can't afford all the expenses so my parents shoulder it all. Right now my bf and I doesn't live together coz my parents wants us to get married first but I was surprised when my brother took his gf home and told us that she got kicked out of their house because her parents found out that there something happened to them already. Few weeks later my brother told us that they found out that his gf is 1month pregnant already. I'm excited with the baby but at the same time I'm envious also because they live together in our house. I hope my bf and I can live together in our house just like them...

Blame

All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you.
The only thing blame does it to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration.
You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won't succeed in exchanging whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy.

WHY ME???

Sometimes I wonder, what's in me?

Am I blessed or am I lucky?

To have a dream that turns to reality; coz'

I have someone who loves me truly.

All my life, I've been so blue,

but not until I found you.

'coz you made me feel a love so real,

'coz you gave ur love to me without a deal.

You were always there to make me smile,

and make each day a brighter one,

You always make me feel so very special

each time you say, im the only one!

What did I do to have someone like you?

Am I that good to deserve a love so true?

What made you love a girl like me?

and lastly, I wanna asked....WHY ME???